Ophiucus

I just realized that the last time I updated this blog was one year ago.

One actually short year though. I am still stuck in US NAMRU-2 doing researches. Of course, right now I have graduated and being paid for what I do. It’s just I felt that I haven’t moved forward from here. Need to finish this project real soon though.

Oh yeah, I got an internship in Thailand for 3 months with my friends and it was the best three months in my life I think. Nice places, nice people, nice friends, nice experience.
I met so many wonderful people there especially my lab colleague there. Amazingly friendly, funny, and talented. I miss them a lot.

Well, I guess that’s it for now. See you again soon.

Hahaha. Yesterday I experienced my very first fire drill.

It happened while I was maintaining 2H2 hybridoma in the clean room. I was concentrating on the cells when I heard a noise similar to the noise of tile cutting. Since  there were a lot of renovation at my place, I thought it was just another job done by the workers. Until suddenly, a doctor who worked there opened the door and asked whether i heard the fire alarm or not. I hesitated at first, thinking about my cells, my antibodies, my research data, my bag, everything I had there, but I walked out, still in my lab coat and gloves on. I walked out. And when I was already outside, the authorities said that it was just a fire drill. I felt relieved and laugh. It was very funny you know that for one moment you were afraid of losing everything and then, snap, it was just in your imagination.

Maybe I should relax a bit. That’s why I accepted the offer from my mum to go to….. BALI and spending 6 days there in those beautiful hotels, beaches, and souvenirs.

Let’s go back to the main topic of this post. Right now, I have polyclonal antibodies (HMAF D1-D4) in dialysis process and approximately can be used next Monday. My "children" are in good condition after all the "feeding" and "bathing" they are good as new. 2H2 will be injected to mice tomorrow and hopefully I can get the monoclonal antibodies as soon as I get back from Bali.

One of my kit has arrived and it’s ready to be used as soon as possible.

I am 90.9 kg (need some workouts).

Hahaha. Whether I like it or not, it seems to me that I’ve the brand of Mr. Sinister. Evil, cynical (even sarcastic) who just loves to, what else, being mean.

Well, I’ve never had the intention of becoming an evil and mean person you know. It’s just that I have a very low EQ that makes me unaware of the condition around me.

Let’s be honest, nobody wants to be alone and hated, right?

At least, I still have a very few nice friends with me.

Enough of my unimportant social life, let’s get to my research.

I’m scared right now. I haven’t given my proposal the final touch. It seems something is still lacking. I’m trying to introduce fresh ideas from different journals.

My hybridomas are not dead yet, so I can’t do ELISA to check the antibody produced. It should be done on mid-September. I have to catch up with the mouse injection schedule that if not done properly will interfere with the public holiday in mid-October.

After getting the ascitic fluid, if my calculation is correct, it will be just the perfect time to do the purification and labelling since the kits will have been arrived for 1 week. How exciting.

I am going to try my hardest to finish it on time. I’m also beginning to search for a Master Programme which of course has to do something with medical background. We all know how I HATE food technology.

Enough of it, let’s go to my weight reducing programme.

It seems to me that my blood type diet is going well. I’ve lost a about 1-2 kg in just 2 weeks. Quite good remembering I usually never lose weight without not eating. Unfortunately, this diet limits me from eating poultry, the only meat source I’ve been using since I don’t eat beef anymore and try to reduce pork that has tapeworm…

So right now, I’m 91.4 kg. Wish me luck.

Let’s play…

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Ada yang tau ote-ote? Hehehe, kalau dari Jawa Timur, tapi ndak tau ote-ote itu namane keterlaluan. Wakakak.

Baru-baru ini akhirnya mencoba ote-ote Porong sing ada di Muara Karang. Benere wis suwe kethok depote, tapi gak sido-sido ke sanane. Pas kemarin papa dateng baru nyobain.

Rasane itu lho… Aduh mak (gak pake nyuss) uenak tenan. Wis suwe rek gak makan ote-ote. Kroso soro rasa tirem ambek rumput laute. Aduh marigini lek lumpur Lapindo tambah ganas at least aku sek isa makan ote-ote Porong di Jakarta. Huhuhu.

Lain ote-ote lain pula sushi apalagi fusion sushi punya. I can daringly say that Hachi Hachi Bistro is the best fusion sushi restaurant I’ve ever eaten (for other kind of sushi, Sushi Tei rocks). Emang uenak.

Hari ini ngajak 2 temen makan di Hachi Hachi di TA. Udah lama nggak makan fusion sushinya Hachi. Harganya sih di Surabaya tergolong murah makanya saya ajak 2 temen.

Ternyata perkiraan meleset bung. Nggak tau apakah karena udah lama nggak makan jadi nggak tau harganya naik atau memang kalo di Jakarta semua harus jadi lebih mahal. Yang pasti tadi makan mahal abis.

Emang sih, rasanya itu masih tetep sama, tapi ukurannya lebih kecil jauh banget. Agak nyesel walaupun tastenya masih tetep aja: UENAK YO….

Jangan heran kalo hari ini balik lagi 91.1 kg. Hehe.

Some of my friends are having a crisis with their social life.

These problems were not visible to me until today. At first, I thought I was the only one having all the stress and trouble this semester that had affected my attitude towards other people.

Some of my friends have expressed their feelings through various media. One of which used the blog to express it, another told others about the feeling, some just used verbal communication to do it.

Most of them were telling me about the same thing, we are getting irritated with one or two of their closest friends. Kinda funny you think? Sometimes, when we have been already too close to other people we often see their dark side too. The dark side, of course, is not something that we had expected to see especially from the people we trust.

Let’s just say that most people usually overestimate their closest friend as the most trustworthy friend they have until they found out that their most trusted friend often badmouthed them. Others overestimated about their friends ability to judge or befriend with them. While, other group felt that they are being used by their closest friend.

I did experience these things and I’ve got to admit they’re not easy to handle. Most of the problems cured themselves as time goes by, some went away together with our trust, and some just remained like a chronic disease.

It is how we handle these problems that matters. We have to introspect and see deep inside our heart then judge whether it is me who have problem or they?

I am 91.1 kg.

This is a very beautiful and romantic song. The first time I heard it, it was sung by Melinda Doolittle in American Idol. At first, I didn’t really like it. After hearing it twice, I found that this song was amazing.

I’ve already have 5 version of this song. My first version is by Ella Fitzgerald which is the complete version and also the best version for me. Melinda Doolittle get the second place for her rendition of My Funny Valentine. I like Frank Sinatra’s and Chet Baker’s, but I don’t think this song suited Michael Bublé.

I am 91.1 kg.

Argh…

This week has been a dreadful week. It started on Monday with all the hectic preparation of my group’s fermentor and continued on Tuesday and Wednesday where I overdid my own obligation with that thing. Not to mention the "explosion" that happened on Wednesday morning.

The problem continued with the hunt for the unknown, unclassified and underestimated orchids for my Friday reports. The search took hours and so much money needed to be spent for that.

On Friday, I have to prepare myself for today presentation and the presentation that I’ve prepared didn’t work well. To be honest, I don’t see any defects in my product or my marketing strategy. I think the judges don’t quite get the insight of the situation and condition of dengue infection and outbreak in Indonesia. Heck, I don’t think they really understand what endemic means.

And so, my already-getting-well condition from rhinitis and cough is rapidly declining to a painful sore throat which has commenced its attack on me since Thursday morning. I’ve tried to boost my immune system with vitamin C and green tea, but none have shown significant result. Poor me ^_^.

Well,I have to improve my condition soon. I still have a Bioreactor presentation on Monday morning and BMKP lab final exam on Tuesday.

I am 91.5 kg.

Sometimes I feel so alone in this world. I do know that my enemies hate me (well which enemy doesn’t?), but sometimes those who I call friends left me too.

Often I feel that I don’t fit in.

I admit that I am a selfish person, but if you’re a friend of mine, please remind me. Don’t just leave me over there like a fool waiting for you guys to speak to me or respond to my speech.

I am a perfectionist. You might feel uneasy around me. I ask too much maybe? Then tell me if you feel burdened. I can help you too. But please don’t just leave me standing all alone by myself.

I am a power abuser. Yes, I am. But please pull me back down to earth if my head has flown too high.

I am a negative thinker. I do see things in a dark perspective. So please shed a light on my mind so I can see a brighter world out there.

I am stupid. So teach me. I am not quickwitted, I am slow. Help me learn new things.

I speak harshly. Remind me to be gentle to people.

Friendship is not only a one-sided relation. Don’t just use me when you need me. I’ll feel sad. If you only want my stuff please stop fooling me.

Yours truly.

I am 90.9 kg (geez).

Well, there are a lot of things in life that I would love to do. I sometimes wonder why time just pass me by and not give me a chance to just stop and enjoy everything I’ve got.

Reading my introduction it seems that having an eternal life is a wonderful thing, but is it really true? Do you realize what lies beyond it?

What is the scariest thing in life? Death? Being forgotten? Being left behind all alone?

If I were granted with an eternal life, I would be facing all those three scary things. I have to face the death of so many people that I love. I have to withstand being forgotten and having no one. What will it be?

What makes our life so meaningful? It’s not the length of life that matters, but what we have done in our life that gives our life a true meaning. Why makes human life so precious? The fragility, the short-length of life are things that make life beautiful and precious.

So, have you done something for your life today?

I am 90.1 kg.